Finish lines

     Photo: mine

So much in life involves fear of finishing.

There has been many a thing that I haven't started due to the fear of not completing the task. This all starts way back when I did actually struggle with finishing things due to a complete and utter onset of mental exhaustion brought on by my HSC.

That, I finished, and with a remarkable 90.20% TER mark. 

Everything else after that....big, fat, incomplete.

I wander at what point I lost my confidence in myself and my abilities. 

I have tried to pinpoint just where I went so wrong, but I can't figure it out. 

In the last few weeks this marathon training has played with my mind. I want to finish. I want to do it, but I just don't know if I can.

So much time required. So much energy and so much of myself that I am not sure I have to give.

The thing is that I am not sure that I am prepared to back out now, given Im six weeks in to sixteen weeks of training. 

I want to enjoy this journey, but so much doubts my mind. Why is confidence in oneself so easily stripped away? 

Believe in yourself. Don't let fear overtake your desires.